saw the fixtures for club's tournament
and i panicked.


haven't played tournament for ages.
still dont feel like a doubles player
after so long. i love doubles BUT
i cant seem to play it well. i've got no
confidence in myself these days.

i used to be full of confidence in
whatever i do BUT now, i feel so useless.
i dont know what has gotten into me. wth.




i need saint nicks training this very moment. ):
maybe i shouldnt doubt my abilities.